Just a few thoughts....

This may be an emotional post.....just warning you!

I am full of mixed emotions today. One of my best friends from High School learned that her 4 year old has Rhabdomyosarcoma, Cancer. One of my other friends recently found out that one of her twin babies (that she is still pregnant with) passed away. I am sad!!! For all of their heartache and the feeling that I can't help either of them. I want to take their pain away! It makes me think of my own children and how blessed I truly am. Am I a selfish person for being thankful it wasn't my child?  I am thankful for the gospel and know that they are too. I know that both of these fabulous women have great testimonies and don't need to hear again and again that Heavenly Father is aware of them, to keep their chins up, to keep the faith. It does make it easier with that knowledge but it still hurts. I have had family members go through these exact same things, but it never gets easier. It just makes me want to hug my children, and never let them go. To not let them leave the house, ever. But that is not the eternal plan, I know that. I know there has to be the bad with the good. But sometimes it just seems so unfair. My tears today are for all those families....and the gratitude in knowing mine is an eternal one.